- My beautiful little Zenith -

This is a quick sketch I did of our deeply beloved cat, Zenith (Zen), who very sadly passed away last night after a long, ongoing battle with an autoimmune disorder at just 4 and a half years old. I am absolutely devastated. We were extremely close, we had a deep connection and bond and he has been there for me through some of the most difficult times in my life over the last 4 years. It's been painful, but has helped a little to draw this quick sketch of him and write this poem. A lot of the shading was unfortunately lost on scanning this sketch, but I will work on it more another time when I'm less emotional. Miss you so much my darling

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My dear little Zenith,
it's been a day since you passed,
But I don't feel any better,
I know this hole is here to last,

To know I will never hear your meow again,
Or hear your rumbling purr,
to never be able to snuggle again,
And bury my face in your fur,

To never again hear rustling at night,
And know your playing in a bag,
Or hear you and Wazzie stampeding about,
You used to drive me mad !

But now I'd give anything to hear that again,
Even 10 years of my life,
if it would bring you back to me again,
and not have this cut like a knife,

I'll never forget that first day we saw you,
Sitting in the pen at the shelter,
You were the runt, we picked you up,
And knew you'd be a little heart melter,

You nibbled at our fingers,
gave them a good lick too,
from that moment on we knew you were the one,
and said we'd come back to get you,

The day we brought you home,
I knew you were a special boy,
you threw yourself on your back, straight on my lap,
and purred with absolute joy,

Ever since that day,
our bond has only ever grown,
Ive never known a cat so snuggly,
and into my heart you merged,

You knew whenever I was sad,
and snuggled up with me,
Or whenever I was mad,
Sometimes only you could see,

At night you'd always sit on me,
or snuggle under my arm,
we'd keep eachother warm all night,
You'd always keep me calm,

But now to know I'll never feel,
the comfort of you again,
to hear your gentle snoring next to my ear,
My beautiful little Zen.

To never again tickle your tummy,
and have you stretch out and purr,
to never again hear your infinite scratching,
in the litter tray at a stupid hour,

Everywhere I go and walk,
it's a reminder of you,
all the little haunts you used to be at,
empty forever more,

I don't know how to deal with it,
I feel sick right down to my core,
I think I'm alright then remember and cry,
that I'll never see you anymore,

You were only a little baby,
far too young to leave us here,
but we know you are at peace now,
and no longer have to fear.

You've been so incredibly brave,
throughout your short little life,
fighting against everything that came at you,
the autoimmune that ran rife,

Now you never have to worry about being itchy,
or suffering from pain again,
you will forever more be happy,
and we'll meet you again at the end.

You have fun in the meantime,
up there at rainbow bridge,
I know you'll always be here with us,
watching down on us as we live,

when it's our time to see you again,
we expect a massive snuggle,
lots of purrs, and licks and nibbles,
knowing never again will you struggle,

I love you so so much,
we just had that special connection,
you knew me and I knew you,
it was complete and utter perfection,

I'll never ever forget you,
and you'll never ever be replaced,
you'll forever be our gorgeous little boy,
and we'll always remember your face,

I cannot wait to see you again,
but until that time we meet above,
goodbye my gorgeous little darling,
and I'm you sending infinite love.

I know you'll still be here with me,
not physically, but in spirit,
and in my heart you'll stay forever more,
engraved deep down within it.

Goodbye my little sweetheart,
but goodbye only for now,
it wont be long til we're all united again,
Forever, up in the clouds.



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